Relief

Why can't I feel
the blood
in my heart throb
why can't I feel
the air widen my lungs
and then pass through my throat
emptiness
I'm ashamed of myself
what I've allowed others do to me
how others have changed me
who am I
don't know anymore
thought I was getting better
but I was wrong
again
what's gonna happen now
have I destroyed everything
all the promises
all the dreams
but this time
you have yourself to blame
because I won't take the fall for this
you just proved to me
who you really are
but still
the emptiness is eating me
piece by piece
I'm slowly disappearing
from this messed up world
finally
relief