How to deal with lost

I recently lost my cat in an accident i sometimes forget he's gone. Last night i thought he was outside my window as usually so of course i open my door in the middle of the night looking for a black cat, Not the smartest thing to do. But it's feels really lonely to be alone in the house when i'm used to have him right beside me at all time.

I think the lost of a cat is not as easy to deal with as people thinks and they almost everytime just says its a cat. For me he was a friend who did comfort me when i was sad. A friend who always been their for me even if i was behaving like an asshole.

Yeah i bet you will probably think i'm a loonie and crazy but sometimes i think cats speaks to you in words you dont understand and they can feel how you're feelings are. Maybe they do got a soul like people got, and what's a soul anyways?

I rather have a cat as a friend then a friend who dont got your back when you need it!