When nothing makes sense

When i was a boy i always dream of being someone who would make an impact on our world, Now i realize that is not the person i'm destined to be, no i'm just another boy trying to bee like a man. I think i have my moments but at the time it becomes less and less each day. How hard can it be to feel happy i dont know, its seems that i'm never truly happy anymore.

Complete happiness can't be achieved but i think i deserve that something goes my way. I'm not that bad of person even to it seems to me that i try to be something i'm not. For everyday i become less and less familier with who i'm and what i become. I try try to achive something unreachable far behind in the past.

At this time i'm trying to be happy but i think happy is a state of mind where i will not bee at a while so i'm just scared from the past.