sanningsokarens blogg

hej hej hej hej hej ... idag skall jag göra allting på samma gång som alltid ha de gött pözz

Nu har man äntligen fått bredband som gör att det fungerar att streama 24/7 och det kommer jag nog göra!
Fullständigt sämst just nu men det kommer la :)


http://www.twitch.tv/morkenrahl

Vart ska man börja, avskyr verkligen människor ibland för utan människor hade fan planeten mått bättre och då tänker jag inte bara på klimatet utan i allmänhet, hade vart bättre utan oss helt...

yeah i love black hair! <3

What colour on my hair should i have White or Black?:) ^^

Well you all have this kind of friend who always tells you they got your back, but everytime you're in a fight or an argument he is gone as the wind?. People i just met back me up but a close friend shut me down when i need them.

I always think what would i do in this kind of situations? often i just freeze and wake up when everything is over so i'm not perfect either. But i dont go around and tell everyone how i got their backs in every fight. Often they don't consider me as a fighter. Becouse i'm not a fighter i'm the guy that always just get beaten up badly and then often laught about it later.

What i'm trying to say is this, if you have a friend who always are acting tought dont count with them in a fight often it's a suprise who is really holding your back when you need it!

I recently lost my cat in an accident i sometimes forget he's gone. Last night i thought he was outside my window as usually so of course i open my door in the middle of the night looking for a black cat, Not the smartest thing to do. But it's feels really lonely to be alone in the house when i'm used to have him right beside me at all time.

I think the lost of a cat is not as easy to deal with as people thinks and they almost everytime just says its a cat. For me he was a friend who did comfort me when i was sad. A friend who always been their for me even if i was behaving like an asshole.

Yeah i bet you will probably think i'm a loonie and crazy but sometimes i think cats speaks to you in words you dont understand and they can feel how you're feelings are. Maybe they do got a soul like people got, and what's a soul anyways?

I rather have a cat as a friend then a friend who dont got your back when you need it!

I hear people all the time gossiping about their friends, Later on i confront them with this and of course they lie, I did not say that you're lying. But both know thati's exactly what you said. I think people often are to scared to say what they want instead they go behind your back. I know this becouse i have done it myself and i been the victim to people trashing me behind my back.

Why are we so afraid of telling that we want in the face of the one it concern?. I think it all about confidence, people dont want to face their own problems instead they create problems about someone else. No one wants to be the one who gets bullied instead they become bullies and trash someone else life.

And this problem is not only in kindergarden or in school, grown ups do the same fucking thing to eachother, And the worst fucking thing is your "so called friends" sits there and just laughs with them. For once i want to hear someone go and brake this chain.

I want you to next time someone trash your friend tell them what you really feels about the person and walk away. Grow some fucking balls...

When i was a boy i always dream of being someone who would make an impact on our world, Now i realize that is not the person i'm destined to be, no i'm just another boy trying to bee like a man. I think i have my moments but at the time it becomes less and less each day. How hard can it be to feel happy i dont know, its seems that i'm never truly happy anymore.

Complete happiness can't be achieved but i think i deserve that something goes my way. I'm not that bad of person even to it seems to me that i try to be something i'm not. For everyday i become less and less familier with who i'm and what i become. I try try to achive something unreachable far behind in the past.

At this time i'm trying to be happy but i think happy is a state of mind where i will not bee at a while so i'm just scared from the past.

When i woke up this morning i wasn't perpare for this, who is. I wake up to late as useally and my aunt was picking me up becouse i was babysitting her son. It's then the day starts to make no sense at all. My Cat one of my oldest friends born 1992. I knew this day would come but nothing could perpare me for this.

My Aunt came up to my window and was screaming , i run over the cat! I wake up and was about to find out that he was'nt dead yet. He was lying in pain outside my house. I run to him and carried him into the house. I knew quite fast that he wont make it. He could walk, he tryied and his backbones was paralised. I told my aunt to drive back to my grandmother with the kids.

Of course she was in a state of chock. I told her it was nothing she could do, only this is nothing kids should se i told her. And then she realised it to so she drove away.

I tryied to comfort Zingo but i saw i his eyes he was terrified and he tried to move severals times until i moved him up to my knee. I called my uncle at work and he came and we went to the vet. i did'nt went in their becouse i didn't want to see him dead. I wanted to rememeber him alive.

After he was dead we berried him under the ground outside in the wood behind our house. It was a big job becouse the ground was frozen but after an hour we where done with the grave we didn't marked it, becouse we did'nt want to remember the place later when we are in the forest.

I Cried all the time and you will always be remember for what your where a friend , a comrat and someone who always been there for me when i was sad or happy , I love my beutiful cat and i will never forget you <3