Spoken Word - Porn

It's sad to see
that you touch yourself
more than you touch me

I know the reason,
his name is depression
the actions he cause make me overreact
like a child with aggression

I feel bad, I stalk your phone
this is my confession
It's just that hard to lay waiting
while you watch session after session

Well it's just for relaxing
everyone should have alone time
it's normal
so i'll accept it and stop asking
we'll book an appointment it's so sexy when it's formal

It's not relaxing
knowing someone else's body is more distracting and attracting
Is it normal?
that watching someone else sucking
is more exciting than receiving oral

I keep a journal in my head
of everytime we go to bed
I get one night a week
if even that

The rest of the nights
I find pictures of naked girls
stomach flat, booties fat, you come so fast

I keep a journal in my head of everytime we're having sex
I cant compete with porn, get jealous and think of my ex

You say you don't have energy and i'ts much easier
Energy for fapping instead of girlfriend teaser
Sometimes you don't have the energy
To touch your dressed up girl is not enough sensory

Okey if you touched yourself once a week,
the same amount as doing it with me
But watching other girls almost everyday
Makes me want to stop trying
I just feel like i'm in the way

You think that i'm sleeping
when you start looking down at your phone
i'm quietly weeping and feeling
so so alone