is it time to grow up ?

recently ive been told to grow up .. by couple people ! that i seriously started to think that maybe i do need to grow up
but the thing is , if i actually need to , i dont want to ! like seriously people who da fk wanna grow up !> ?
we all gonna change one day and get to that moment when the inner child insides us dies !! but why do i have to kill mine _? if its still there ?#
just because i get super jealous ? or because im afraid of losing what i have ? or is it because i cant accept the fact that you changed ?
if you grow up that was your damn choice dont force it on others you fucken cunt !!
eghhhh ... i got a little exited there my bad ..
the thing is , what if im actually a child and i cant see how much of one i am .. what if i really need to grow up and move on but i cant see that point because im blinded of fear .. fear of losing all the fake fuckers around me ..
fear of being alone ..
is it wrong not to wanna be alone ?
after everything ive lost in my life .. things you cant even imagine ..
im not ready to lose more ! i dont want to lose more
i dont know if its time to grow up yet ..
but i know one thing for sure .. its not me who have changed .