Wardcondas blogg

recently ive been told to grow up .. by couple people ! that i seriously started to think that maybe i do need to grow up
but the thing is , if i actually need to , i dont want to ! like seriously people who da fk wanna grow up !> ?
we all gonna change one day and get to that moment when the inner child insides us dies !! but why do i have to kill mine _? if its still there ?#
just because i get super jealous ? or because im afraid of losing what i have ? or is it because i cant accept the fact that you changed ?
if you grow up that was your damn choice dont force it on others you fucken cunt !!
eghhhh ... i got a little exited there my bad ..
the thing is , what if im actually a child and i cant see how much of one i am .. what if i really need to grow up and move on but i cant see that point because im blinded of fear .. fear of losing all the fake fuckers around me ..
fear of being alone ..
is it wrong not to wanna be alone ?
after everything ive lost in my life .. things you cant even imagine ..
im not ready to lose more ! i dont want to lose more
i dont know if its time to grow up yet ..
but i know one thing for sure .. its not me who have changed .

So let's see ! Is there is anyone here who's crazy enough to meet a random person online just Bcz why not ?
I seriously love meeting new people and make new friends but well yeah let's be honest here it's not easy here in Sweden :/ . Or maybe I just don't know how yet .!
So I came up with the first idea I had ! Let's meet people online and see who's crazy/weird ENOUGHY to actually do , just a hangout , maybe a beer or just go out and eat nothing TOOO crazy you know XD
So are you crazy enough?

Seriously thou people fuck that shit " relationships" ! It sucks everything out of our soul and keep us without anything just hanging there having no clue what to do next !
Why im saying this now ? Bcz I just the tickets for Green Day concert mailed to me .. Two of them ! One for me and the other shoudl have been for my girlfriend.. The love of my life! But guess what .. She broke up with me like 10 days ago ! .. Now every damn thing happes to me reminds me of her..
Whatever im doing she just pops up in my mind Bcz we used to do everything together.. For a while there i believed that she was the one I would spend the rest of my life with..
We studied together , we partied together, we played together, we cooked, we talked , we smoked , we planed our future trips ..
Now it's all gone .. I can't enjoy anything bcz everything reminds me of her ! ..
We were supposed to go to the concert together but she also fucked that up for me ! .
I gave her everything! EVERYTHING.. And she toke it all ! When I had nothing else to give she just throu me away and left me empty !
And the worst motherfacken part is ... I still love her ..

I've to wake up after 2 hours, then travel for 4 hours all day tomorrow/today and come back here again... Im too tired to sleep and too bored to stay awake ..
Heellllllpppp T_T