i dont need any responses, i just need to write.

I dont know what to do any more on the 3rd of september it has been 7 months since me and my ex broke up.. its been nearly 7 months of hell. Yes, i have wonderful friends who have helped me through it but it doesnt hide the fact that i still love him.. and i do more than anything.. But i cant say anything.. he doesnt care.. he doesnt wanna meet me.. he doesnt understand.. He wrote to me the other day and at the end he said "If its true love the love never dies" or something along those lines.. i just wrote "haha".. i cant explain to him.. he doesnt understand.. Yes, ive tried meeting other guys.. but im pushing myself to find someone.. eventhough i know its not true, and its bad of me.. I want to find love, but i know i have found love.. as i said to my ex when we were together i have never loved anyone as much as i loved him.. and i still mean it to this day.. he truely is the love of my life.. i wouldnt have gone through all i did to stay with him if i didnt.. How do you stop these feelings.. its never been like this for me before.. normally i get over guys quite quickly but now its been nearly 7 months and i feel the same way i did when we were together.. i still just wanna write to him and prove to him how much i love him.. but i know i cant.. he just wants me to move on.. and i wish i could but its not easy when you feel this way for one person.. the tears are running.. but what can i do but cry.. i know it doesnt help, but nothing can help.. I just wish things were different.. i craved a lot of love from him.. as i always gave him so much love as i loved him more than anything.. i realize its my fault we broke up as i needed him much more then he needed me.. but i love him.. i would do anything to make him mine again.. wish i had the guts to just go knock on his door, but i know it wont help..

I love you.. mon cher.. always...