I dont know what to do any more on the 3rd of september it has been 7 months since me and my ex broke up.. its been nearly 7 months of hell. Yes, i have wonderful friends who have helped me through it but it doesnt hide the fact that i still love him.. and i do more than anything.. But i cant say anything.. he doesnt care.. he doesnt wanna meet me.. he doesnt understand.. He wrote to me the other day and at the end he said "If its true love the love never dies" or something along those lines.. i just wrote "haha".. i cant explain to him.. he doesnt understand.. Yes, ive tried meeting other guys.. but im pushing myself to find someone.. eventhough i know its not true, and its bad of me.. I want to find love, but i know i have found love.. as i said to my ex when we were together i have never loved anyone as much as i loved him.. and i still mean it to this day.. he truely is the love of my life.. i wouldnt have gone through all i did to stay with him if i didnt.. How do you stop these feelings.. its never been like this for me before.. normally i get over guys quite quickly but now its been nearly 7 months and i feel the same way i did when we were together.. i still just wanna write to him and prove to him how much i love him.. but i know i cant.. he just wants me to move on.. and i wish i could but its not easy when you feel this way for one person.. the tears are running.. but what can i do but cry.. i know it doesnt help, but nothing can help.. I just wish things were different.. i craved a lot of love from him.. as i always gave him so much love as i loved him more than anything.. i realize its my fault we broke up as i needed him much more then he needed me.. but i love him.. i would do anything to make him mine again.. wish i had the guts to just go knock on his door, but i know it wont help..
I do think its funny that i still cant believe that me n my ex has broken up i mean its been nearly 5 months.. and i still love him as much as the day we parted.. its fucking crazy...
I love him so much :C
.. Don't wanna do anything..
My mums getting married at srf today.. And I don't want to..
I wanna be with the one I love more than anything..
I hate knowing that he's the one for me and that he feels nothing..
Yesterday was the last day I will see him for how knows how long..
I wish I didn't love him.. But I can't help it..
God knows I try to take the feelings away, try to be strong..
But what can I do.. I know he will never take me back..
The day we broke up (March the 3rd) he said he lost feelings for me..
He couldn't tell me how long he felt that way or why..
And it still gets to me today..
I love you bby forever and always..
(And for people who know who I'm talking about don't say anything as I know it will get to him and I just want him to be happy, I just need to write it somewhere..)
