Home sweet home?....Or my own living hell.

Been home for about 1½ week...3 more to go.
When i stepped on that train i knew how hard this would be... and yet im back on this list...

*Feeling hopeless: Check - Its not like life is worth anything if you have no one to share it with...

*Becoming irritated for no reason: Check - - - - - - -

*Anger and frustration: Check - Why did i leave, why did i go...

*Loss of interest in favorite activities: check - Whats fun when hes not a part of it...

*Change in sleeping/eating habits: Check - Food dont taste the same anymore and trying tosleeping just make me think

The last step wont come as my only reason to live is to make him smile and be happy any harm that would come to me would make him cry and i cant hurt him...

I have told you i love you many times, and when i see that smile on your face i cant bring myself to tell you how much im hurting not to be by your side, how my heart feels broken and how empty i feel inside, how i cry myself to sleep every night... i miss you so much, please let me be strong enough to make it through these comming weeks.