Psykobitch666s blogg

Grattis,jag förstör...
Jag förstör Allt jag rör...
Ville bara du skulle veta så Allt kunde bli bra..
Men skitsamma nu ger jag upp....
Du var min bästa vän en av få jag kunde Lita på..
Men som alltid så är jag,jag och förstör allt...
Om du Läser och känner igen dig så...
FÖRLÅT FÖR ALLT,jag Vet att vi aldrig mer kommer bli vänner..
Men jag Vill att du Ska veta att jag mena inget illa...så..
Förlåt...
Hejdå...

She wrote to me telling me it’s help she needs,
She said that she cries every night and she’s weak,
And now she just bleed.

Why does everyone look so damn perfect,
I’m sixteen and I feel really worthless,
My skin doesn’t look so clean,
I wanna look like Katy Perry,
Katy never had problems like me,
Bet she never felt so fat and ugly,
I’m sick of this pain and I want it to end,
A blade in my hand and my life in front of me,

I feel really nervous,
I wanna be skinny but I get so hungry,
Got bad pains inside of my tummy,.
I hope that they won’t even notice the scars.
My arm sis a mess,
I won’t wear a dress or short skirts,
I can’t cope when things get messed up.
Yet again I fall into the same mistakes,
I guess you would never understand,
The feeling that comes with a knife in my hands.

I said "I can’t cope anymore…
And now I just bleed.
I just bleed."

Just an average girl
She always wore a smile
She was cheerful and happy for a short while
Now she's older, things are getting colder
Life's not what she though, she wishes someone had told her
She told you she was down, you let it slip by
So from then on she kept it on the inside
She told herself she was alright
But she was telling white lies
Can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes
Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night
But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright
Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves
'Cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see
She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it
Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it
She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound
Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed
She had no friends at school, all alone she sat
And if someone were to notice she would blame the cat
But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake
But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate
Things were going down, never really up
And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut
She knew exactly what she had to do next
Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck
She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild
"Look at me now, are you proud of your precious child?"
But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame
It was the world that should bow down it's head in shame
She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon
Just don't think, it'll all be over soon
The chair fell down as she took her final breath
It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting death
Her Mum walks in, she falls down to the floor
And now nothing can take back what she just saw
The little girl that she raised is just hanging there
Her body's pale and her face is violently bare
She sees the note and unfolds it with care
All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?"
She starts reading as the tears roll down her face
"I'm sorry Mum but this world is just not my place
I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in
I've come to realise this world's full of sin
There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space
I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race
It's a disgrace, I was misplaced
Born in the wrong time, and in the wrong place
It's okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon
You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon
As it shines bright, throughout the night
And remember everyone's facing their own fight
But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter
You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter
So let the world know, that I died in vein
Because the world around me, is the one to blame
And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone
'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on
That's what they use to tell me, all those kids at school
So I'm going by the law majority rules
My presence on this earth is not needed any longer
And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger
You're the best friend, that I ever had
Such a shame I had to make you so very sad
But just remember that you meant everything to me
And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key
Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write
And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight
I'm watching over you, from the clouds above
And sending down the purest and whitest dove
To watch over you, and be my helpful eye
So this is it world, goodbye."......

Varför ska jag alltid må såhär?
Jag har mått dåligt sen jag var 6 fucking år....
Sen träffa jag han allt blev så jävla mycke bättre..
Sen lämna han mig...hörde aldrig av sig ett skit...
Inte ens ett hejdå fick jag...inte varför han lämna elller något..
vi var aldrig tsm..men han var mitt allt iaf...

Efter det hade jag vänner som stötta mig...
Jag började gilla en av dom...
jag berättade...hon kände ej samma sak...
men en dag skrev hon...att hon va osäker men att hon trodde att hon gilla mig..och undrade if i still gillade henne...
Sanningen var att jag började komma över henne...men föll dit igen för att hon var en av dom jag gillat mest...Hon sa med att hon var osäker på om var reda för ett förhållande...
Några dagar efter....går jag in på ask...ser att hon skaffat kille och skit...inget hon berättat för mig....jag hade en äkta vän kvar efter det.....jag pratade med henne om det och sa att den tjejen skrivit till min kompis under den perioden att min kompis var hennes allt och skit...
Hon gillar ej att jag snackar med den tjejen idag...men hon är en av mina bästa vänner nu....det är dom båda...

Dom är dom två jag älskat/Gillat mest av alla jag någonsin haft känslor för...(om man inte räknar men en annan men får se vad som händer där!)
Nu orkar jag ej mer....Bye!<3

My Eyes.......asså dom bara rinner och rinner...dom vill inte sluta rinna...jag ar förstört allt....jag förstör alltid allt...är så jävla bra på det fuck this shit....jag hoppas du bara kunde se hur ledsen jag är och att det var iinget jag villr eller önskade.....ointressant information..men kändes som att rätt person kanske ser detta och förstår...önsketänkande jag vet :C