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I´m scared to anyone what I´m going through
I´m scared of telling them how I spend hours crying because I feel so alone.
How I feel so lost and empty on the inside, how I no longer have any aspirations or see the future for myself.
How their hurtful word eat me up inside, how I hate myself for not have the courage to stand up for myself.
How I no longer can feel emotions. I feel dead. I feel numb and bitter and dark inside.
I don´t want your sympathy, I want your help.'I´m scared you will judge me and ignore me and think I´m mad.
And you will leave me too. I´m afraid of tell you because it´s engulfed me so much. I´m in this whirpool of self hate and depression wich has sucked me in and prevents me of reaching out.
It´s stopping me from opening my mouth and tell anyone.
So please, help me because I don´t want to carry on like this anymore.