To move or not to move...

So I've finally come up with two solutions to my problem.

1)
I stick this one out AGAIN get another job after being on the benefits for another 6 months and pretty much end up killing myself at the age of 19/20 because I obviously can't do anything right since I can never have a job longer than 4 months for some reason or other... Not enthusiastic enough... Not right for the job... They can't afford to keep me on anymore or simply because I can't trust any of my so called 'friends' since they go ahead and get me fired and lose my house...

OR

2)
Move back to Sweden, let my debts in England mount up higher and higher and higher whilst my dad slowly dies alone because I am not there looking after him and at the same time going anorexic again and eventually killing myself at the age of 18 because of either starvation or depression >.>

Call me pathetic or whatever but realistically. It's 1 or 2. No loopholes this time.

I can't handle stress.
I can't handle 'friends'.
I can't bear living without one of my parents and being honest.

I just want to be 5 again because that is the last time I actually remember being happy because it was me, mum, dad, my brothers and smiles.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY DAMNIT!

FUCK THIS SHIT ;_;