The past and the growth

I've never been one to be in the center of attention so I can't really tell what it's like.
Always been curious as to what it feels like when you finally are. Personally, I chose a life that's more like that of solitude than being able to catch peoples attention. Afterall, I chose to be one of many.. Until now

Throughout my life I have always had several friends close by yet I always kept a certain distance from.
Whenever I shortened the distance, the more I got hurt which led to me becoming frightened.
So what did I do? I acted. Like so many others have done, I pretended I was someone I was not.

In the end, it all led to me breaking away from close to every single bond I had made. Had I not found the friends I did (afterwards) then I would've remained a lonewolf and never grown.

I found myself because of them, the people I have grown to love and cherrish.. Almost as if they were family.
This is my confession, my own words and my belief. I wish I could thank you enough for what you have done for me but I will most likely never be able to. So at least I want you to see this and know that you mean more than you might be aware of.


I am not sad about the life I have even though I regret some decisions I have made.
But even if I regret them, I would not change them even if I could.. For they are a part of me and a part of what made me into the one I now am. And had I not been the one I am, then I doubt I would ever have gotten a chance to call you my friends.