Ugglesnurvs blogg

The feeling of touching someones skin is something i've forgotten about. Does it Hurt to touch another human?
Forgotten how the feeling of being embraced in someones arms feels like.
Feels like everything i do, is annoying to everyone.
Everything i touch falls apart.
Forgotten the feeling of a true friend, someone who ask's me about my dreams and goals in life.
Even the feeling of someone calling me on the phone, no one ever says my name, it's been so long now, that i think i've forgotten my name.
No one would even know if i died tonight.

Sometimes i get the feeling that everything would be better if i didnt exist.

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Man inleder den på följande vis, Man sitter hemma, lyssnar på musik, dricker lite whiskey och halvsover. Precis lagom start kan man säga!

Sitta vak två nätter i rad på ett sjukhus måste vara bland det tråkigaste man gjort.
Tur att det finns musik, och hjärndöda mobilspel att fördriva tiden med. Annars hade man nog själv hamnat i sjuksängen!

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Sov Gott Morfar

Life is a clay urn on the mantle,
And I am shattered on the floor.
Life is a clay urn on the mantle,
And I am scattered on the floor.
We are the wounds and the great cold death of the earth...

Life is a clay urn on the mantle,
And I am the fragments on the floor.
Life is a clay urn on the mantle,
And I am the ashes on the floor.
We are the wounds and the great cold death of the earth
Darkness and silence, the light shall flicker out...

So is this it?
Is this what i fought for?
and what i've gained
To Think life had more to offer,
Instead i lie here, in remorse and suffer.

And i hate you for doing this,
And i hate you for saying that
I never did enough to ever please you
Never did enough for it to cease to
Affect me the way it does
Provoke me the way it must.
And i'm still thinking
I'm not enough.

And even though i know you lied
And even though i saw the signs
The same three words each time
I am fine.

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