I'm empty..

Right now I really don't know what to do.. All i feel is darkness and all the light in my life is currently missing. I feel empty, I don't feel happiness or even sorrow. I just feel empty and I don't know what to do. The only reason I'm still living is because I don't want to hurt my littlesister, she's the only reason I'm still here. But I can't live in this emptiness just for her... I can't set myself on fire to warm others. I don't work that way. Nobody does.
At the same time I can't go talk to someone about it since I don't like to open up to people I don't know..

And when I'm using someone else to feel better it just makes me a even worde person than before. But I have to get over someone else... How do you even do that..?


Maybe I should just disappear... It's for the better...