Eleonores blogg

brilliant video, it's a simple little quest to go out and ask people, but really it gets you thinking!
I love everything and everyone apart from the things and people I don't love but if you've ever separated "gays" from "straight people" then ask yourself "when did you chose you be *whatever sexual orientation you may have*?"

to this day, this is still one of my absolute favorite moments!

when did wanting to be alone become equal to being the pity party of the year?

any
lonely
optimistic
neutral
equal

anyone can want to be alone at times and this time is my time.

I know, I guess it's a good thing that people actually care enough about me to...care. but I never asked for pity. and telling someone to stop pitying me makes me sound like a bitch. maybe it's me, maybe people are just trying to be nice honest nice and not pity nice. I honestly don't know but today I felt pitied. people felt sorry for me. and I don't get why it has to be that way

maybe it's me,

maybe i am pitiful.

maybe.

that's what he said... no but it's just so difficult!

I find it hard enough knowing who I am to myself internet is not making it easier. I want to show as much of me as possible so I can connect to similar souls and all that but no.

profile picture, presentation! wow let's not even ...! Hi this is my name and this is my life story. um no.
sigh

it's hard and it's hard cause I see other people and ofc maybe they all have the same problem maybe some do some don't maybe it's just me I don't know but really seeing how others know and tell the world about themselves and they sound so cool.

am I a dork for saying I wanna be cool? probably yeah but being a dork is not so bad I'm probably to active in sports and fighting that I can't even be considered a dork, I'm a fucking MMA fighting, Jujitsu preforming, Submission wrestling bad-ass.

AND I TALK! holy fuck let me just tell you if you say what's up I tell you about my day, ask what kind of music I like and you get a fucking science project in music and philosophical thoughts about the subject. it's like I am afraid I guess of being misunderstood or judged I can't just say I do this I feel like that I like that music because truth to be told I'm probably doing what I'm doing because of something, what I feel can be a total mix of everything between heaven and earth and honestly I am pretty open minded so I can see good in various different songs and genres.

speaking of open minded (see here I go again...)
I know some people, my past self included, who used to be like "damn that girl she has no will of her own if I say I like this she like it too and if I say I don't like it anymore she doesn't either" I'm guessing at least some of you know what kind of person I'm referring to and when I was going to write this I was actually going to say that being open minded is not the same as being that person but I changed my mind, maybe it is you know, without knowing the whole story you can't really tell I guess.
But I do feel it's a good thing if you explain yourself, to me that is what feels right if I change my opinion it's probably cause something convinced me to do so and if I have like "good" bases for that change well then fine?

ah... this is starting to sound a lot like the intro to my philosophy book maybe I'm just thinking too much
people used to tell me that like a lot... you think too much, can you even do that? is it not good to think? well actually you can over think things but also ...///

I'm just gonna stop there cause my head is so full of thoughts supporting multiple sides of multiple arguments / statements so I probably won't get anywhere and I might not make sense as I try to write it down

thanks for reading if you did

if not then you're not even reading this so no thank you for you! ah but you won't know you didn't get a thank you well you didn't! but for you who is still here thank you I wonder if anyone will be reading this if I said monkey randomly would you monkey notice? hm...

I feel... I feel.... I feel....
- Fantastic?

lol scarred fighter, I just thought to myself "right it's his birthday tomorrow, should I bring him a gift? yeah like a punch in the face" ... well

haha strange feeling really, when you have a habit of hurting someone on their birthdays ;) to me it's more of a tradition to, before the "happy birthday", throw someone on the ground rather than to hug them or shake their hand!

#fighterhabits

"Du gör såhär: Ta listan som du tycker är allra bäst, Den måste ha över 24 låtar och tryck på "shuffle" alltså slumpa, sen trycker du på next och skriver in låt namnen!"

ok! hej ho let's go

Hur mår du idag?
- Giftig

Kommer du komma långt i livet?
- Can't hold us

Hur är skolan för dig?
- In my arms

Vilken är ditt livs themesong?
-  The sky's the limit

Vilken är din livshistoria?
-  Laserlight

Hur ser din framtid ut?
- If I die young

Hur blir din morgondag?
-  Walking in Memphis

Vad är det bästa med dina vänner?
- Start of something good (God that song is good <3

Vilken sång beskriver dig bäst?
- Exile

Hur ser ditt liv ut just nu?
- Höj volymen

Vilken låt kommer spelas på din begravning?
- One way or another

Hur var du som barn?
- How to save a life

Vem kommer du gifta dig med?
- Remember the name

Hur ser världen på dig?
- Cinema

Vad tycker dina vänner om dig?
- Way too long

Brukar folk i hemlighet fantisera om dig?
- If it means a lot to you

Kommer du någonsin få barn?
- Coming back down

Vilken låt beskriver den du är attraherad av?
- Losing you

Hur blir du igenkänd av folk?
- Sherlock

Vilken är din livsfilosofi?
- MAMA

Vad tycker dina föräldrar om dig?
- Lucky guy

Tycker andra att du är attraktiv?
- Yeah x3

Vad kommer du säga när du gör slut med någon?
- Forever

Hur ser du på sex?
- Vithaj

fint :)

1. Eleonore Victoria Byrlén
2. Leo
3. at times I can be "afraid" of dirt/bacteria, darkness and bugs but at other times I'm okay with all three of them.
4. music, art and exercise
5. personality, looks, talents and circumstance of meeting
6. bad personality, bad hygiene, disrespect and ... something else
7. Ines
8. hetero if you want to put a name on it
9. hasn't happened yet
10. 1m 72cm last time I checked
11. I don't know actually
12. 7,16AM
13. hm purple atm
14. I do
15. there are too many grate ones to name only one favorite
16. the dojo, outside (forest / beach / city), or in my room
17. all food is my favorite food
18. not at all, never
19. like this by wonder girls
20. depends on what's noticeable on the person
21. 38/39 I think, it kinda depends on what kind of shoe it is
22. brown
23. black-red-ish
24. on me I don't really know, on others it depends
25. I don't think so actually
26. white and black
27. my username is samui-ninja and samui is Japanese and means cold
28. way too many
29. today I think that'll have to go to the glee casts version of whistle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bEmiJSPEBLE)
30. ooh hard think I'll say SHINee
31. quite good actually
32. myself
33. single
34. grate
35. every holiday has it's charms, it is all about what you make of it
36. I don't have any
37. list is far too long hahaha no but I have plans on some, someday, maybe
38. I think that was Thuy, he introduced me to tumblr
39. I'm currently reading two but last one I finished must have been the one we read in school "Det är så lågiskt att alla fattar utom du"
40. ever, I have received some but currently I'm not I guess
41. no
42. third grade? no I don't know
43. depends what I do
44. I don't shave my legs
45. in my room
46. I don't drink like that, and if I did I'd probably have ... no, I'd Never, drink like that.
47. reasonably loud

well it's only 15 minutes past 12 so it still counts as Halloween right?
yeah

well, ya'll have a nice day today

cya~

When cats can’t accomplish something, they just pretend they were about to do a different thing.


maybe I should try that...

School is driving me nuts, I don't even know WHY I'm studying, I just don't know.
I want to say things like
I know because I want to
or
I learn because it's fun
but you know what?

what I'm going trough is NOT fun.