lost?

you know how it feels like when you lose someone you love. someone you care for. someone you would do anything for. first the denial, then the anger, then regret - why was I angry, then realizing, and then comes the feeling you fear the most, The Falling. like you'r falling in to a dark hole with out an end, falling in outer space, circling around without and plan of ever stopping. and as you fall you think. you view the scenario as if it were on repeat. and all the time you wish you had done differently. but at the same time you know that this was meant to be, and no matter how you would do, it would come to this, sooner or later. well, that is how I feel now. like my grip is loosening, my hands cant hold on any longer, like my legs won't bare another mile. and I wish, I Really Do Wish, that I could explain how it feels loosing your self.

but my words won't come. they get stuck before I can speak them. and I wish you will understand, that even if I cry inside, I will still hide in the comforting darkness to let my tears stream down.