Riktigt namn:
Samuel Civilstatus:
Upptagen
Läggning:
Bisexuell
Intresse:
Datorer
Bor:
Med föräldrarna
Politik:
Inte valt
Dricker:
Diverse
Musikstil:
Synth
Klädstil:
Svart
Medlem sedan:
2011-01-15
Love is a subject we all come to sooner or later. Personally, I've been chasing it lika mad for the laste couple of years, mostly due to one reason. I want to experience it, just once, just for one second, is that to much to ask for. But unfortunately I tried to protect myself from others, and that affected my ability to feel affection too. So the outcome of this is that I can't really say I've loved anything, just liked someone a bit more that usual. The exact same feeling for partner, best friend, lover (sex is good, what more an I say) and other people I get to know a bit more. But well, not gonna pursue that anymore! Live free and not bind myself!
Why do things have to be so complicated? Isn't having friends supposed to be a good thing, so why do they only bring you pain and agnst? Was way more easy when nobody cared about one and one didn't have to care.
Senaste tiden har väl varit lite ostabil för mig och mycket har ändrats. Lite osäkert hur man mår som vanligt, vissa saker har väl gjort en glad, men det mesta är bara horribelt (mitt nya favorituttryck?). Har som sagt blivit singel igen, länge sen man var det. Var en väldigt trevlig upplevelse att äntligen få testa på ett bra förhållande men inget jag klarar av, ogillar mänskligheten lite för mycket för att det ska bli hållbart ^^" Så inget förhållande för mig på ett bra tag nu. Man får väl se hur jag löser de olika olägligheterna som uppstår i den situationen. Hoppas helgen blir lyckad, ska träffa vänner och ha det trevligt förhoppningsvis. Nästa vecka blir det även kompanifest! Ser jag verkligen fram emot om inget annat.
I have walked this earth for years now
Loking for many things, trying to answer my inner self
I have had questions both logical and illogical
Both my own and others, trying to find an answer
And my quest has gone well, many things have been found
But many of my desires still burns, in a hunt for answers
Deep down in my broken chest, a cold but still burning shard
A relic from what once was a pounding heart of passion
And within this shard lies the force of a sun
Burning everything dearing to come too close and take it to the open
Now chained and buried in the mausoleum of my hate to them
A hatred running thick and deep, creating a new world
A world, where I am in charge, not the beast of my past.
Wel I've been feeling down for the last month or so and it's really starting to annoy me. Mostly the fact that I haven't spoken about it all with anybody and can't talk about it with the persons it conserns. Need to find someone who can take the time for me. or well, going to the school counselor tomorrow too.
As we fall down the stairway of our life
And we stumbel in darkness at the bottom
We turn to ourself and go to find power
Inside our cracked shell of a human body
But to truly harness the might of all
We must succumb to the darknes around us
And then drag it down into our body
Sealing the cracks and using it all
Using it to destroy this wretched world
A world ruled by despair.
In a world of man
Will a demon never fit
A man with the anger
With the anger and hate
To draw the flesh of you
And to the sound of laughter
See your body drained
Drained on blood and life
And then as you crawl
Begging and seeing up
I will stand there
Your executioner and bane
Taking you down
Where no mercy lies
Så, börjat lyssna på Fall Out Boy, de är fan riktigt grymma :D Gillar som titeln nog säger "Thanks for the memories" då den påminner så jävla mycket om vad jag tycker om mina ex och andra människor som jag inte riktigt har kvar kontakt med!
So, just back from a week in the swedish armed forces. I was a wounderful week with lots of learning and lots of friend. Both new and old ones. As usual I got friends with lots of the new ones and tried to guide them as best I could. Still, as always, there was a special one I got really good friends with! Hpefully gonna meet tham soon enought again! But the there's a backside... Gotten to used to the dicipline of the army that I can't stand school! It's horrible...!
Ute med försvaret på kurs i ledarskap och e skiiiiiiit trött... Vi har haft en jävla massa lektioner och skrivit PM och lyssnat och en jävla massa mer... Deras tänk är basiclly "Bryt ner dem till grunden så vi kan bygga upp dem till goda ledare" och jag kan säga att det inte går lätt på psyket hela tiden. Men kul e det fan! :D
