Afterlife Part III 'intoxicated'

The last thing she told me was to never lose myself, cut without her I feel so lonely. I feel like I have been split into half. I... I... I'm confused. I have never felt this alone before. She was special. She is special. She will always mean more to me. But now I have to let her go, right? I can't just abandon my quest. This is what she would've wanted, right?
The last thing she told me was to never lose myself. And I feel lost. I have barely begun and the quest is a failure.
You need to cool down. Take it easy and decrease the tempo. Focus. What are you thinking right at this moment? I need her. I... Love her. No, no no no this ain't happening. Don't do this to yourself. Ace, if you do this, you will compromise the entire mission.
No. I love her. I need her. I need to find her. But the final step to salvation is right in front of me. It is but a door to tread through and my sins are all to be forgiven.
But can I live without...
I never told her...
Shoud I or should I not?



To be continued...